IMAGINARY FRIEND


I remember trembling on my urine-soaked hospital bed,

As the thunder clapped and the lightning struck what seemed like only inches from my eight year old head,

Frozen and unable to move for fear that my stitches might rip loose and my chest cavity burst open,

It was the night she first appeared,

She had blue eyes and a comforting smile,

She would wipe away my tears and my fears would drift away,

It was there that I first fell asleep in the arms of my imaginary friend.

 

I remember at thirteen, the never ending coughing spells,

My mother would panic,

And I would run up the stairs hoping to find the elusive air,

As my face would turn from blue back to pale again,

I would retire to my room and hide in my closet,

There she would be,

Those blue eyes and a comforting smile,

She would wipe away my tears and my fears would drift away,

There I would fall asleep in the arms of my imaginary friend.

 

She would be with me through my school years,

On a walk, riding my bike, hitting the tennis ball off the wall,

Even when teenage girls brought heartache,

I could always talk to her,

Out loud when alone,

And disappear in my closet when at home,

There she would be,

Blue eyes and a comforting smile,

She would wipe away my tears and my fears would drift away,

Then I would fall asleep in the arms of my imaginary friend.

 

Your twenties come quickly,

And adults do not have invisible friends,

So I tucked her away in my happy place,

Where only we could hear our whispers.

 

At thirty five I married a woman it seemed I had known all my life,

I rushed to tell my imaginary friend but I could no longer hear her whispers,

We had traveled the world and my imaginary friend was nowhere to be found,

So I lived my life, with my wife, like a little boy in a toy store,

Always wishing I could share it all with my imaginary friend.

 

A year later on my most trying and painful day,

I lay in bed, in my wife’s arms, as tears poured down my face,

She stroked my head and wiped away my tears,

I looked up through red swollen eyes and gasped for breath,

Suddenly my fears drifted away,

I stared into her loving blue eyes and felt her comforting smile,

And suddenly it was clear,

This little boy disguised as a middle-aged man,

Had grown up to marry…

His Imaginary Friend.

by Anthony Torino

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